With this week being Passover/Easter I would like to praise my Lord and Savior Jesus!
As I was going into the operating room on the day of my surgery to get my fibroid removed I became very nervous. I never had surgery before. I started praying to Jesus to calm me down and to be with me. All of a sudden I felt Jesus standing next to me on my right side. I felt this unbelievable peace that I never felt before. I wasn't scared anymore, I felt comfort, warmth, love and peace. I was in communion with the Holy Spirit. He was ALIVE with me! I was experiencing God! I have been saved for several years but never experience God in this way before. I always heard of other peoples experiences with God and always wanted to know Him personally. He stayed with me all through my stroke saving Isabella any myself from death.
I am a sinner, a big sinner, but Jesus loves me enough to save my life and appeared to me that day because I believe in Him. I have learned a couple of things from this awesome experience; He doesn't expect perfection, He want's a real and personal relationship with all His children. Also I know He will heal me 100%! With everything I have been through it has been worth it to know Him.
Holding Isabella with my good arm when she was 3 yrs old
Isabella Panomwan was born on January 7, 2011. 3 months into my pregnancy I had a massive stroke that almost killed Bella and myself. The stroke made me weak on my entire left side and very sensitive. I was sick everyday and it was horrible to say the least. I had to take medications that were very risky for Bella. As happy as I was with Isabella just being alive, healthy and beautiful. I have to admit that in the beginning of Isabella being born I struggled with accepting that I only had one arm to take care of her. I was a first time mom, so nervous, scared and worried I couldn't give her the love and care that she needed. The hardest part was accepting that I would need help and anyone who knows me knows that I don't like help!!!! But thankfully I have a wonderful husband and mother that did the things that I couldn't do. All I could do was hold her in my lap with a Boppy. I felt useless to be honest. Why did God let me be a mother if I couldn't take care of her? I started having seizures daily after she was born. I was so depressed and riddle with constant fear. Every year I got stronger and confident with being a mother. So if the only thing I could do was hold her in my lap with a Boppy then I would rock her to sleep for her nap and feed her her bottle. That is when we really bonded and I felt so great that she was comfortable with me. I started doing more and more with Bella. My favorite was and still is picking out her outfits. Now, I make her lunches, pack her snacks. It doesn't seem to be a big deal but to me it's the greatest job I have ever known to do things for my sweet angel.
Alrighty then I am fat:( I never really had a big weight problem like this before and was pretty healthy and active before the stroke so I really didn't know what to do. So I am trying everything and it is working! I've lost 5 pounds my first week!YAY!I take a nasty shot of Apple Cider Vinegar every day, joined weight watchers, cook all naturalwww.beyonddiet.com, juicewww.juicegeneration.com. Extreme I know but there is so much working against me I have to be dedicated about loosing weight. Exercise/Therapy: Because I still can't move my arm and wear my Gucci high heels, I need to work out A LOT and everyday!
I was 34 years old and 3 months pregnant with my first child. I had to have surgery to remove a fibroid. The next day I had a massive stroke that effected my entire left side. After 5 years of fighting, crying and praying I still cannot use my left arm and cannot walk without a brace. Feeling frustrated all of these years is an understatement!!! What am I going to do while I wait for my complete healing? I am going to start living again! First thing is I have gained A LOT of weight because of my medications so with tears and one eye open I got on the scale to see the truth and yep I was fat!! Let me tackle weight first...
